Thanks for Letting Me Talk About Taps

the things I regret
the things I don't
apologize for the lies I told
that I'm glad he's alright after everything
that what happened could have happened without the drink
that I'd make that call again in a snap
that I wish I'd walked out with my trust intact
that I reacted in fear because at the time it made sense
that with the distance of years it's what I most regret
that I'll always be grateful for the things he hasn't said
that our last conversation still lives in my head
there's a million possibilities but in the end
I think what I'd say first

is that I miss my friend

- "what would you say if you saw him again?"